Last year, you may recall I blogged about having issues losing weight, especially in the lead up to my wedding. I did manage to lose a fair amount but not enough to know that I looked amazing on my wedding day despite people telling me I did. I know I could have made more of an effort, deep down.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. The more people tell me I need to lose weight, the more difficult I find it. I guess I’m using this blog post as therapy really.
I’ve been in my current job two years and it involves a lot of travelling and often staying overnight a various cities around the UK. Trying to keep to a tight budget and trying to eat healthily on the hop is not an easy task. Now, don’t get me wrong, I could make more of an effort and I guess I’m just lazy, but it’s far easier to grab a sandwich for the train or where the meeting is and less so to grab a salad or a soup.
I honestly don’t know how I am supposed to manage a diet, Crohn’s Disease and the constant travelling to maintain a healthy lifestyle. There is no time to join a gym. By the time I get home from whichever far-flung town or city I’ve visited, I just want to crash in front of the TV and not move. I just don’t feel motivated. Obviously, when I am at home I cook healthy meals for myself and Matheus. I’ve also recently been told I have type 2 Diabetes - come on Lauren (!!) - how much more can you really inflict on yourself??? This is an added pressure. The diet for Crohn’s Disease patients and type 2 Diabetes patients is completely the opposite. Less fibre for Crohn’s and more for Diabetes. Which am I supposed to prioritise???
I know I now have many more reasons to lose the weight but I’m still struggling. I’m sure counselling won’t help. I’ve tried ‘Paul McKenna’ and other hypnosis audio. I have no idea if they were beginning to work because I would fall asleep with my earphones in. I never know if I’m supposed to just fall asleep or whether I’m supposed to try to stay awake to listen but, I get so tired that I’m spark out as soon as I’m asked to think of a stream or lake or other body of water or birds chirping/tweeting in the background.
If anyone knows the best way to manage this then please do dispense your wisdom. Help me Obi-Wan Kenobi - you’re my only hope!
